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[Aug. 16th, 2006|02:41 pm] |
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The singer out of Slipknot went to Rome to see the Pope,
The singer out of Slipknot went to Rome to see the Pope,
The singer out of Slipknot went to Rome to see the Pope,
And the Pope said to his Aide
Who the Fucking hell are Slipknot?
Who the Fucking hell are Slipknot?
Who the Fucking hell are Slipknot?
In relation to me getting out of Bed?
CURSE YOU'N DUNCAN!!
That was in my head ALL NIGHT!! hehe!!
We wike oo weally!! |
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[Jul. 11th, 2006|04:20 pm] |
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For once I want to be the car crash
Not always just the traffic jam
Hit me hard enough to wake me
And lead me wild to your dark roads
Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear
My tongue is lost, oh, I can't tell you
Please just see it in my eyes
I pull up thorns from our ripped bodies
And let the blood fall in my mouth
Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear
Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear
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[Jul. 3rd, 2006|11:18 pm] |
Right folks.
Just one thing that I want to say to you all in general.
Since what goes on LJ aparrently does not stay on LJ, I'm just going to say that because some people think that what I express as my thoughts and feelings, which I thought some people would be mature enough to see as just that and NOT bitches about things and certain people that I hold dear, Nothing that I post on here any more will bear any direct relevance to my actual thoughts.
I'll try my damndest to be the happy cheerful person that some people obviously seem to think I should be and not have any emotional depth, not worry about my friends to the point of near insanity, and not bother to think about crap that worries me.
Sorry to those of you who do actually keep what goes here, on here. And to those of you with nowhere near enough sense to see that not everything I say is an indescriminate bitch at people, I offer you a simple solution;
You don't like how I think, don't fucking read my journal.
Okay. Random crap over. Today I ate noodles and went to work. Happy? |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|12:11 am] |
Well... where the hell to begin?
Last night, being Friday night. Was boring until people turned up... was just the Fluff, Adam and I... then Roady turned up... Fluff and I played pool, and crazy quiz machine, then Cathy turned up. All were sociable and Joe turned up. A lot of laughs were had including a choice comment by Adam, who was listening to Joe and I converse about where in the UK Keele is;
"So Joe, If I asked you how to get to Staffordshire, you'd just say go left?!"
At which point all I could Imagine was Adam in a car doing nothing but driving around every left he came across!! I was rather drunk at the time, so I found it rather amusing!!
Later found out that drinking Vodka, Strongbow, Fosters and VK in the same night is actually, shock horror, bad for one's health... was home by about 11 after Adam kindly walked me to the taxi rank after displaying some concern that I'd manage to walk down the middle of the road and get myself killed... got home and was promptly rather ill... then slept through until about 11 this morning... then had a shower and went to work... then the shit really began...
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[Jun. 30th, 2006|02:49 am] |
"just a little hug" By Emily Matthews.
A hug can say, "I'll miss you,"
or, "I'll be thinking of you,"
It can say, "You're someone special,"
or, best of all, "I love you."
It can soothe a hurt, or calm a fear,
or cheer us when we're blue-
It almost seems a miracle
all the things a hug can do!
When the sun is refusing
to shine on your day
and you're finding it hard just to cope,
When you're seeing more rain clouds
than stars in the sky
and you feel like giving up hope,
That's the time when someone
comes along with a smile
and a warm hug
that says, "It's okay-
Tomorrow is coming,
so don't give up now-
brighter moments
are soon on their way!"
There are so many people to whom this apply... Lines one through three are mainly Catherine, Duncan, Emm, Neil, Carrie, Fluff... my friends from the Dog... add line four and we have Adam... infact... think of most of the poem and you have Adam... or at least what we all know he can be... not what he seems to have become of late... which hopefully will fix itself...
I'm such a confused Sarah all over again... I won't bother to go into detail.... I'll confuse myself even more... bleh... |
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[Jun. 26th, 2006|11:08 pm] |
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Well, the verdict of today is: I suck
Attempted something that I thought might help a situation, and what can I say other than, I guess its fucked up even worse because someone cannot understand what I'm trying to say, or just doesn't want to.
Crap day at work. Crap time at exam. Can't sleep again... and am feeling like crap now. Yay for me.
Why the hell does anything I try always end up going so fucking wrong? I think someone won't hurt me, they DO. I try to tell someone something, they take it WRONG. I try to fix something, it gets worse. One seriously FUCKED UP LIFE.
I need to hit something... better idea... one that'll make everyone feel better because I won't be around to fuck everyone off and behave in the wrong way to a situation...
*crawls into a corner to die* |
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[Jun. 19th, 2006|11:40 am] |
hmmm.... Well, I'm one bored Sarah...
Teh Board is currently dead, nobody be online... and I can't think of anything to do...
Ah, last night.... pretty boring really... New quiz machine at the Dog... damned addictive... curse it... got bored after a while... went to the Oak afterwards... Karaoke happened... everyone but Raz Debs and Fury buggered off... I sang Rotterdam, and went home...
Ended up texting the Mop, as I'm getting a little fed up of being ignored all the time... he text back saying he regularly ignores everyones texts, its nothing personal, and if he has nothing of importance to say, then he'll talk to whoever is around...
Not to sound crappy, but I really don't believe him... the last three weeks, I've been lucky to get three sentences from him over the course of an entire night out at the dog, unless he's completely off his face, in which case, the alcohol makes him all affectionate and talkative...
I really don't know what to make of things anymore... He said to me through that text that I should go sit with him and talk to him if he doesn't come over, but every time I do, he gets up and fucks off to talk to someone else, usually Helen. Now if that's courteous and civil behaviour, then box me up and post me back the the twelfth century. At last there people had some concept of chivalry, manners and general decency.
Gods... I need to rant... but what I have to rant about is inevitably going to fuck everyone off... and shit.
*screams at something*
Gods, I suck to the max... |
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[Jun. 17th, 2006|12:52 am] |
Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me - it can only be one word long. Then copy and paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.
Sarah |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|09:18 am] |
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STUPID FUCKING GAY WASTE OF TIME AND SPACE SCHOOL......
So my exam timetable clearly states; General Studies, Languages, French. AM
Now, I don't speak French, and the pricks won't change my paper, partially because half of my form-mates are thick incompetents and don't actually think... hmm... hang on, she's been doing German since yr9, why is she down to do French?
So I get up this morning at 20 past 8... curse violently, as my exam is supposed to start at nine, grab a mouthful of fizzy stuff out of the fridge and throw myself into my motorbike gear to get to school... get to school... realise that the people at the office want to see me... and they give me case study crap that I was supposed to be sent ages ago as I was off ill with my chest infection and rib problems... and then I'm going crazy, trying to find out whre the damn exam is... and I get told
You're a year 13. (No shit sherlock)
Your exam isn't until this afternoon. (*Explode*)
grrrrrr..... I've been woken up at a ridiculous hour to waste my time... and just... grrrr... stupid gay school... *curses some more*
Now I'm going to go and have a shower... grr....
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[Jun. 13th, 2006|12:03 am] |
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| [ | mood |
| |  thinking... possibly too much. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Meatloaf- I would do anything for love (Yeah!! I are a geek) | ] |
Well... Sunday night was quite fun... even though there was almost nobody out, and it was unbearably warm...
Drank alcohol again!! Yay!! Played more pool than I've ever played in my life!! lol! Also won money on the Crazy quiz machine!! hehe!
Hung out with the Fluff for a few hours, Cathy came out and joined us, as did Munkey!! So a generally fun night was had!
Went to the Oak for a teeny little while... No karaoke set-up... was highly disappointed. Played more pool and Munkey gave Cathy and I lifts home.
Today... still horribly warm... BUT, my Anatomy for Fantasy Artists book finally got delivered... spent most of the day geeking over that!
Went to work... got bored, felt ill... watched Poseidon... which is actually really good. I watched the entire movie!!
Wnet home and watched Mercury Rising whilst eating sausages!
Sigh... why is it that people think that if they lie to you about something, you'll just accept it... even if its likely that they know that you know they're lying? I hate that... and it makes me feel really small when a friend does it to me... I mean, you're supposed to be able to tell friends things aren't you... not make up crappy excuses to make yourself look better. Or is this just me? I mean, I'm not that difficult to talk to am I? Granted, I don't often like taking advice from people... but even though it may sometimes appear that I'm not listening, everything is taken into account and stored for future reference... anyway, I'm digressing... Why lie about simple things? I've never lied to my friends... well, only to say that I'm okay when I don't want to talk about something thats bothering me.. but that doesn't really count does it?
If I ask why I'm being ignored, why give me some shit excuse, that I know is a shit excuse? Sigh... apologies... sleepy... a bit annoyed about being lied to... and even more so about being ignored again... curses and stuff...
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[Jun. 9th, 2006|11:24 pm] |
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Its odd... I only see the "gang" twice a week... and Adam maybe once a week more than that.... and now they're gone... I feel so lonely... stupid eh?!
Sigh... I don't even get texts from Adam now....
(Warning- Emo Mode initiated)
*sigh*... so confused... again... Hell, its even confused Fluffy....
Adam doesn't seem to be talking to me anymore... I mean, I got three sentences from him over the entire course of Tuesday night... He spoke with Helen, and cathy, and roady... then when they all left... he sat alone texting someone... didn't speak to me ONCE after then until I walked with Fluffy and him to Asda... then it was only to criticise me because I changed my mind about wanting food, as there was nothing that appealed to me....
*sigh again* Have been thinking over the last week that maybe I've inadvertently done something to piss him off or something...he rarely replies to my texts anymore... and if he does they're always really vague and dismissive... what have I done to him to deserve this? I don't think I've done/said anything to him... so why the shitty treatment... since Helen's been back, he's been pretty much ignoring me, ... gods I sound so very emo it sucks...
Am not going into detail about anything to do with them, as it'll annoy people and upset me more... sigh... and before anyone says anything about it... I've tried to drop it, I really have... I just can't okay... I cannot help how I feel, and I certainly can't help the fact that my stupid fucking heart is screaming at me to do and say things that I haven't got the fucking confidence to do... and it hurts... so before anyone thinks to tell me to drop it, don't even bother... I'm torturing myself enough with things as it is...
Edit: Hmm... I don't know where that came from... but It was aimed at nobody in particular... well, okay... someone on MSN said something that sparked me off... but nobody you'll know and yeah... nobody take it personally, or I'll cry... meh...
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[Jun. 7th, 2006|10:15 am] |
Well, as far as pub nights go... last night was one of the worst yet for me...
I turned up late, following uber massive row with family about sister being able to steal large quantities of money from me, using it to buy fucking SWEETS and being able to get away scott free with it all... grr...
Download was the main topic of discussion... not going.... meh...
Finally allowed/have funds to get alcohol... so drank Vodka... which in hindsight, was a bad Idea... when Drinking Vodka, I tend to get very emotional, and then go from one end of the emotional scale to the other.... I'm either highly happy, super hyper Sarah, or majorly dejected and depressed Sarah... which seemed to take precidence last night... the Lack of sleep lately, which amusingly is making me look like an anorexic panda, is most likely the main reason for that, but throw in the grr factor of arguing with my mother most of the week, Cathy and Roady vanishing last night without saying bye and this whole three sentences in a 5/6 hour night from Adam... and it doesn't help...
Speaking of which... what the hell have I done to deserve that?
I'm suppposed to be his friend, and yet he can only make the effort to grant me three sentences over a night... has he any idea just how very upsetting that is?
To my knowledge, I've done/said nothing to him lately to deserve it... meh... I shall cease now.. and go bath the dog...
I have nothing better to do with my life until mother comes home, and we go out motorbiking... and since she's proposing a new route... we're inevitably going to end up getting lost...
*sigh*
Have fun those of you going to download... probably see you when you all get back... |
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[May. 31st, 2006|03:05 pm] |
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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Fucking gay nutcase fucktard of a mother...
Got up today somewhere around 12.30, as I was sleepy last night, and didn't really sleep too well due to freaky and highly unpleasant dreams... and Mother is nowhere to be found, along with fucktard of a sister... who just happens to have fucked off with my bloody leather jacket, complete with MP3 player, Wallet and Inhaler... So I get pissed off about that... get a phone call from Mother when I'm in the middle of a generally okay-ish "Lets be nice for once and do some housework... since I'm bored and the place is a tip.
Phone Call:
Phone: *ring*
Me: Yagen?
Mother: What the hell is that supposed to mean?
Me: Probably nothing, but it pisses the telesales people off...
Mother: Butter 6 slices of bread, get the sauce and vinegar out. *puts phone down*
Me: Bloody charming.... *does the shit she wants and air guitars to something on the radio...
Mother then walks in in a shitty mood, along with slut of a sister. I steal my coat back, look through my wallet and discover my last £1 has gone... (all I have to last until Saturday) I accordingly and well within my rights, flip. I start shouting at bitch sister, who has spent it on bloody sweets... *grr*... then get shouted at by mother for getting angry at the fucker for stealing my money... Then I start shouting back at her about this shit, as if I'd done that to fucktard there, I'd be grounded for Gods know how long, as well as having to pay her back and all sorts of other shit...
Eat cold chippy chips in bread... get pissed pff even more, as I've not long cleaned the kitchen and fucktard goes and spills tea everywhere...
Then mother has the audacity to bitch at me, saying things about me not getting up until 2pm (when she wasn't even here and I was up hours before that... *grr some more*) therefore I must be lazy, I do nothing around the house... (???? Excuse ME, this place was a sty when you left, it now looks presentable, and only because I've been working my ass off here trying to make things a little easier on YOU) and THEN fucking slams the front door on me as I'm trying to explain to her what I've been doing...
To make matters even better, she promised me yesterday that we'd go out on a Motorbike ride today, she'd put £5 worth of petrol in my bike as I have no money or petrol, and then we'd ride to a pub and she'd treat me to a glass of coke somewhere... now she's decided she'd rather plant fucking flowers in the garden with fucktard....
One pissed off Sarah... *growls and shreds things* |
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[May. 29th, 2006|11:30 pm] |
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| | Justin Haywood- Forever Autumn (Original War of the Worlds) | ] |
Grr doesn't quite cover how pissed off I am at the moment...
Mr Suri visited today, and was in a bad mood before he even walked through the door... Proceeded to bitch at everyone on tiny matters... Told me I have no idea how to clean, because I was standing at the door with the rubbish bucket taking the rubbish off the customers before they left... he seems to think that as soon as I open the doors to let customers out I should be off and cleaning... WANKER....
Then Ryan decided to get all high and mighty... so I got more pissed off with him talking down to me, thinking he's all superior to me.... not to make too much of the time card, but I've been working there for 2 years and nearly four months. He' been there what? A year or so??
Cathy has been there about a year, and she's great. She works harder than half of the staff AND never talks to anyone else like they're something you'd wipe off the sole of your boot.
Gods... half of the staff at the moment need one hell of a beating... *shreds paper with nails...* not a happy Sarah... grr...
On a better note, I'm getting a new book on drawing Human anatomy, and since I seem to have developed an obsession with X-men again... I was thinking that when I get used to drawing people, I'll do the gang as superheroes... mutants really, so grab your mutation!! Woo!!
Going to bed now... wiiih...
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[May. 29th, 2006|01:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| [ | mood |
| | w'emo and lonely... | ] |
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| | Aerosmith- Pink | ] |
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[May. 25th, 2006|11:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | w'emo.... | ] |
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| | Seether ft. Amy Lee- Broken | ] |
Sigh... for some unexplainable reason, I feel so very w'emo its scary.... Mind you... the current musical selection most likely isn't helping... *looks at the playlist on Dad's computer*
hmm...
Seether- Broken
James Blunt- Goodbye my lover (don't shoot me, its getting skipped!!)
Michael Buble- Home
Switchfoot- Twenty Four
The Calling- Stigmatised
hmm... again... EMONESS!!
What have I done with my life today? Hmm, Got up at 12 as I was up until 3 this morning doodling... Changed a few things on Adam's birthday card...
Looked after the rats, ate toast and drank some tea, went to my nanna's house, got bored, Went to one of my mother's friends houses to get her massage bed thing back, went to McDonalds, went to Woolies to Get Adam the new Tool album for his birthday. Texted Adam for a while. Went home... got really bored... watched "The Life of David Gale" on DVD... bored...
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[May. 24th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
Well, I've not updated in a while, so I thought I'd put something random up here!!
Lets see... um... Tuesday night. Wasn't as good as most nights... was okay I guess! There were emo bands playing.. we played pool... Duncan is now called Bill!! I'm now Eric (some emo band wanted people for their mailing list!! hehehehe!!
We skipped going to the Oak cos' it sucks cock on Tuesdays... we went to Asda, where Carrie and I looked at clothes, and Carrie expressed her desire for a nice pair of dungarees!!
We then trundled off to the Park for about half an hour! Then the lovely Neil gave Carrie and Duncan a lift to Carries, then dropped me off at home!! Yay! Was home shockingly early, 12 midnight... mother was quite shocked!!
Toby is still somehow alive.... sigh... poor rat... he's wrapped up and asleep again.
For some reason feeling rather emo today.... oh well. I'm officially free of school forever!! Okay, except for exams, but that doesn't really count!!
Must remember to pull all my shit off of the school system before the account gets wiped... grr...
Going shopping for Adam's birthday present tomorrow... I have absolutely NO IDEA what to get him... I've already drawn up his birthday card, and I have to say I'm very proud of it!! lol!
Wiiih... I have a headache... and I'm hungry... I shall now leave!!
*hugs for all* |
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[May. 19th, 2006|01:17 pm] |
Well... last night didn't go half as badly as I thought it would... Got to Adams... his mother invited me out to ask... I went, but only had a glass of coke as I felt really weird.... and I'd been forced to eat by mother before I left!!
Took me more than five hours to get the courage to start talking to him about things... once we got started, it was really easy to sort things along... He still doesn't know EVERYTHING, but at least he sort of knows how I feel about him, and just how much it hurt before... and stuff... and I feel slightly better for it... I just hope I've not made him feel too bad... bleh...
Its the closest I've been to him when he hasn't been drunk... he was all huggy and being really nice... wiiiih...
Sigh.... am off school today... stupid chest infection... grr... coughing... headachy and my ribs are killing me again... grr...
Oh well... I'm off to play with my new rat now!! I'll put up a picture later!! He's called Midget!! And he's CRAZY!!!!
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