Innane ramblings, most likely with Emo phases!!

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 13:45:54 GMT

The singer out of Slipknot went to Rome to see the Pope,
The singer out of Slipknot went to Rome to see the Pope,
The singer out of Slipknot went to Rome to see the Pope,
And the Pope said to his Aide

Who the Fucking hell are Slipknot?
Who the Fucking hell are Slipknot?
Who the Fucking hell are Slipknot?
In relation to me getting out of Bed?

CURSE YOU'N DUNCAN!!
That was in my head ALL NIGHT!! hehe!!
We wike oo weally!!

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 15:21:23 GMT

For once I want to be the car crash
Not always just the traffic jam
Hit me hard enough to wake me
And lead me wild to your dark roads

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear

My tongue is lost, oh, I can't tell you
Please just see it in my eyes
I pull up thorns from our ripped bodies
And let the blood fall in my mouth

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cos I'm so tired of all ths fear

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 22:24:19 GMT

Right folks.
Just one thing that I want to say to you all in general.
Since what goes on LJ aparrently does not stay on LJ, I'm just going to say that because some people think that what I express as my thoughts and feelings, which I thought some people would be mature enough to see as just that and NOT bitches about things and certain people that I hold dear, Nothing that I post on here any more will bear any direct relevance to my actual thoughts.
I'll try my damndest to be the happy cheerful person that some people obviously seem to think I should be and not have any emotional depth, not worry about my friends to the point of near insanity, and not bother to think about crap that worries me.
Sorry to those of you who do actually keep what goes here, on here. And to those of you with nowhere near enough sense to see that not everything I say is an indescriminate bitch at people, I offer you a simple solution;

You don't like how I think, don't fucking read my journal.

Okay. Random crap over. Today I ate noodles and went to work. Happy?

Sometimes Life is just so SHIT that you actually want to be emo...

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 23:45:17 GMT

Well... where the hell to begin?

Last night, being Friday night. Was boring until people turned up... was just the Fluff, Adam and I... then Roady turned up... Fluff and I played pool, and crazy quiz machine, then Cathy turned up. All were sociable and Joe turned up. A lot of laughs were had including a choice comment by Adam, who was listening to Joe and I converse about where in the UK Keele is;
"So Joe, If I asked you how to get to Staffordshire, you'd just say go left?!"
At which point all I could Imagine was Adam in a car doing nothing but driving around every left he came across!! I was rather drunk at the time, so I found it rather amusing!!
Later found out that drinking Vodka, Strongbow, Fosters and VK in the same night is actually, shock horror, bad for one's health... was home by about 11 after Adam kindly walked me to the taxi rank after displaying some concern that I'd manage to walk down the middle of the road and get myself killed... got home and was promptly rather ill... then slept through until about 11 this morning... then had a shower and went to work... then the shit really began...

You know when you walk into somewhere and it just doesn't feel right... there's a nasty tension in the air and everyone's on edge... thats what it was like when I got to work... then throughout the afternoon, Penny started bitching about Sass whilst she wasn't in the room... then Sass was bitching about Penny whilst she wasn't around... and Penny was being all sarcastic with me as she wanted me to go to munch on my bike, but didn't actually say anything to me about it, she just asked if I'd had lunch yet, and I said that I wasn't hungry... then Sass came in whilst I was cleaning screen 2 with Nick. She said that she was going to munch, did either of us want anything. I like the chicken wraps from Munch, so I said I'd have one of those. Then when I came out of the screen Penny got all sarcastic with me... which pissed me off...
Then we ate food... let in another show... and then Penny came into the stock room and said that she wanted
"ALL the stock from the bottom office brought up and put on the shelves, stock that wasn't out putting on the counter and the kitchen cleaning up."
Then she buggered off to B&Q or somewhere. We got all the stock out of the office, it filled the kitchen and Sass, Nick and I were talking about how there was too much and there was a lot that we didn't know we had and things we'd never seen before. Then Penny comes back, bitches about us bringing all the stock up, even though she TOLD us to. Then Gareth runs upstairs and a few minutes later Penny's back in the kitchen shouting at us for bitching about her and not taking her seriously and saying that she can't do her job... when none of that was actually said.
She laid right into Sass and was damned nasty to her, she even sent her home. Then called Suri in, who interviewed everyone about it, and then Sass had to come back in and went away looking really upset... I don't know whats happened, but before nick and I left, were were treated to Penny bitching about how Sass is always slagging her off, and nobody takes her seriously... and how the staff is all divided, get this

The Staff sidings according to Penny

Penny's Side
Penny
Haley
Ryan
Ian
Catherine

Sass's Side
Sass
Nick
Gareth
Mike

In the Middle
Sarah (me)

Now that strikes me as a little bitchy in itself.
1. Because she's decided that the staff are all split into these things
2. Because I'm the only one in the Middle. I don't think Catherine (please correct me here if I'm wrong) is one sided. She gets along with everyone as far as I've seen...
3. Because she thinks that Ian and Mike are petty enough to get drawn into these stupid petty squabbles that are happening.

The way I see it.
Penny's side
Penny
Haley
Ryan
Gareth (depending when it suits him)

Sass's Side
Sass
Nick
Gareth (again, depending when it suits him)

Stuck in the bloody middle of all this crap
IAN
Mike
Catherine
Myself

Its stupid. I hate going to work now. Nothing has been right at that place since Paul bloody fired Adam like that. Which he had NO justification to do, even under Suri's rules. Two verbal warnings, a written warning then a dismissal. Thats what he's said should happen. If Adam had been bothered like some of the rest of us were, to fight for his job instead of just accepting what that sack of shit Paul did, then he'd still have a job. Hell, I even fought for his job... but he couldn't be bothered to get in there and do the rest for himself. I was the one that nagged at Ian about it. That wrote a damn letter to Suri about it. That told Ian about the illegality of what Paul did. I begged him to call Paul on the day that he tried to call in ill, but he couldn't be bothered. And you know the nice thing? He didn't even bother telling me that Paul had fired him... I had a bad feeling about it. Called cathy the day after Adam had been ill, and said something about it, and SHE told me...

Dammit. I seem to be ranting a little here, and I don't want to stop so please discount anything that you don't like.

Adam has no Idea just how much I've fought for him... If he wanted to drop his job then thats his loss, but still... what is with him now? Granted, the last few days he's been a lot better than he has for a long time... but he doesn't tell me anything... he says that we're good friends, but he never talks to me about things. Lately he's not bothering to reply to texts, which is really upsetting because he's gone from faithfully replying to just about every text I send him, to just not bothering... and I have no idea why. Have I committed some awful and grave sin that he doesn't want to divulge to me? He's changed so much in the last few months... he's gone from being an almost perfect gentleman, chivalrous, polite, caring and just plain kind, to some sort of chav crossed indie... I don't know... he's just being so rude and insensitive lately... I mean he's said really nasty things about some people lately that I never thought I'd hear him say at all, least of all in reference to those people... which makes me think, if he's like that with people he's treating a HELL of a lot better than he's treating me, then what the hell is he saying about me behind my back? Its a horrifying and terrible thought... I feel like I've been dropped... I'm rarely included in anything nowadays... in a way it feels like at least two of my best friends are asking me to fuck off... but without actually putting it into words... only actions that I may be supposed to pick up on and act to...
I'm in such a mess lately... I just want to sit down and cry half the time... I love someone who's being unexplainably... gods I can't even put it into words what I feel he's acting like lately... I know I love him... and lately... he's nice when he wants to be... and then at other times he's just plain rude...
I may fall apart... and this is one INSANELY long entry... I'm tired and I'm going to bed.... I feel like shit and I'm at work again for the next two days... Hopefully Karaoke will go well...
I'm going to write sad poetry and sleep now...........

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:54:31 GMT

"just a little hug" By Emily Matthews.

A hug can say, "I'll miss you,"
or, "I'll be thinking of you,"
It can say, "You're someone special,"
or, best of all, "I love you."
It can soothe a hurt, or calm a fear,
or cheer us when we're blue-
It almost seems a miracle
all the things a hug can do!
When the sun is refusing
to shine on your day
and you're finding it hard just to cope,
When you're seeing more rain clouds
than stars in the sky
and you feel like giving up hope,
That's the time when someone
comes along with a smile
and a warm hug
that says, "It's okay-
Tomorrow is coming,
so don't give up now-
brighter moments
are soon on their way!"

There are so many people to whom this apply... Lines one through three are mainly Catherine, Duncan, Emm, Neil, Carrie, Fluff... my friends from the Dog... add line four and we have Adam... infact... think of most of the poem and you have Adam... or at least what we all know he can be... not what he seems to have become of late... which hopefully will fix itself...
I'm such a confused Sarah all over again... I won't bother to go into detail.... I'll confuse myself even more... bleh...

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 22:10:33 GMT

Well, the verdict of today is: I suck
Attempted something that I thought might help a situation, and what can I say other than, I guess its fucked up even worse because someone cannot understand what I'm trying to say, or just doesn't want to.
Crap day at work. Crap time at exam. Can't sleep again... and am feeling like crap now. Yay for me.
Why the hell does anything I try always end up going so fucking wrong? I think someone won't hurt me, they DO. I try to tell someone something, they take it WRONG. I try to fix something, it gets worse. One seriously FUCKED UP LIFE.
I need to hit something... better idea... one that'll make everyone feel better because I won't be around to fuck everyone off and behave in the wrong way to a situation...

*crawls into a corner to die*

bored... lost in thought....

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 10:49:34 GMT

hmmm.... Well, I'm one bored Sarah...
Teh Board is currently dead, nobody be online... and I can't think of anything to do...
Ah, last night.... pretty boring really... New quiz machine at the Dog... damned addictive... curse it... got bored after a while... went to the Oak afterwards... Karaoke happened... everyone but Raz Debs and Fury buggered off... I sang Rotterdam, and went home...
Ended up texting the Mop, as I'm getting a little fed up of being ignored all the time... he text back saying he regularly ignores everyones texts, its nothing personal, and if he has nothing of importance to say, then he'll talk to whoever is around...
Not to sound crappy, but I really don't believe him... the last three weeks, I've been lucky to get three sentences from him over the course of an entire night out at the dog, unless he's completely off his face, in which case, the alcohol makes him all affectionate and talkative...
I really don't know what to make of things anymore... He said to me through that text that I should go sit with him and talk to him if he doesn't come over, but every time I do, he gets up and fucks off to talk to someone else, usually Helen. Now if that's courteous and civil behaviour, then box me up and post me back the the twelfth century. At last there people had some concept of chivalry, manners and general decency.
Gods... I need to rant... but what I have to rant about is inevitably going to fuck everyone off... and shit.
*screams at something*
Gods, I suck to the max...

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 23:52:30 GMT

Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me - it can only be one word long. Then copy and paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.

Sarah

curse, growl, curse Maim

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 08:24:37 GMT

STUPID FUCKING GAY WASTE OF TIME AND SPACE SCHOOL......
So my exam timetable clearly states; General Studies, Languages, French. AM
Now, I don't speak French, and the pricks won't change my paper, partially because half of my form-mates are thick incompetents and don't actually think... hmm... hang on, she's been doing German since yr9, why is she down to do French?
So I get up this morning at 20 past 8... curse violently, as my exam is supposed to start at nine, grab a mouthful of fizzy stuff out of the fridge and throw myself into my motorbike gear to get to school... get to school... realise that the people at the office want to see me... and they give me case study crap that I was supposed to be sent ages ago as I was off ill with my chest infection and rib problems... and then I'm going crazy, trying to find out whre the damn exam is... and I get told
You're a year 13. (No shit sherlock)
Your exam isn't until this afternoon. (*Explode*)
grrrrrr..... I've been woken up at a ridiculous hour to waste my time... and just... grrrr... stupid gay school... *curses some more*
Now I'm going to go and have a shower... grr....

Too hot...

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 23:13:52 GMT

Well... Sunday night was quite fun... even though there was almost nobody out, and it was unbearably warm...
Drank alcohol again!! Yay!! Played more pool than I've ever played in my life!! lol! Also won money on the Crazy quiz machine!! hehe!
Hung out with the Fluff for a few hours, Cathy came out and joined us, as did Munkey!! So a generally fun night was had!
Went to the Oak for a teeny little while... No karaoke set-up... was highly disappointed. Played more pool and Munkey gave Cathy and I lifts home.

Today... still horribly warm... BUT, my Anatomy for Fantasy Artists book finally got delivered... spent most of the day geeking over that!
Went to work... got bored, felt ill... watched Poseidon... which is actually really good. I watched the entire movie!!
Wnet home and watched Mercury Rising whilst eating sausages!

Sigh... why is it that people think that if they lie to you about something, you'll just accept it... even if its likely that they know that you know they're lying? I hate that... and it makes me feel really small when a friend does it to me... I mean, you're supposed to be able to tell friends things aren't you... not make up crappy excuses to make yourself look better. Or is this just me? I mean, I'm not that difficult to talk to am I? Granted, I don't often like taking advice from people... but even though it may sometimes appear that I'm not listening, everything is taken into account and stored for future reference... anyway, I'm digressing... Why lie about simple things? I've never lied to my friends... well, only to say that I'm okay when I don't want to talk about something thats bothering me.. but that doesn't really count does it?
If I ask why I'm being ignored, why give me some shit excuse, that I know is a shit excuse? Sigh... apologies... sleepy... a bit annoyed about being lied to... and even more so about being ignored again... curses and stuff...

Random lyrics... from Meatloaf... Because as old as the stuff is, I love it... well, most of it!!

And I would do anything for love
I'd run right into hell and back
I would do anything for love
I'd never lie to you and that's a fact

For crying out loud
You know I love you
I was damned and you were saved
And I never knew how enslaved
I was kneeling
In the chains of my master

Never callin', unanswered letters,
how you been, feelin' better?
Never lookin', but you're hearin',
never speakin', but you're feeling
All the silence, and it's wounding,
you're not healing, just concealing

I can tell by the look in your tear-filled eyes
You need somebody you can hold onto
If you really want to, I'd love to hold you
If you really want to, then I'd love to be the body that you hold onto
You say, he broke your heart,
he left you crying, but he did not set you free
And now you feel like you can never love again

I stare in the mirror
My eyes refuse to blink
Sympathy for me
Hell I can't even think
Send for the iceman, my temperature is startin' to rise
I've heard it before, I know the truth from the lies
Is it any wonder, heaven's racked with thunder
and all of my dreams go under
like the fallin' rain

I ain't livin' here no more
I ain't even keepin' score
It's too late to change, it's over
I'm drowned in a sea of tears
Nothin' I can say to you makes any difference
There ain't nothin' I can do
None of it's makin' sense

There was a time when nothing ever really mattered
There was a time when there was nothing I didn't know
There was a time when I knew just what I was living for
There was a time and the time was so long ago
There was a time and the time was so long ago
And I never really sleep anymore...

Bored and lonely...

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 22:39:38 GMT

Its odd... I only see the "gang" twice a week... and Adam maybe once a week more than that.... and now they're gone... I feel so lonely... stupid eh?!
Sigh... I don't even get texts from Adam now....

(Warning- Emo Mode initiated)

*sigh*... so confused... again... Hell, its even confused Fluffy....
Adam doesn't seem to be talking to me anymore... I mean, I got three sentences from him over the entire course of Tuesday night... He spoke with Helen, and cathy, and roady... then when they all left... he sat alone texting someone... didn't speak to me ONCE after then until I walked with Fluffy and him to Asda... then it was only to criticise me because I changed my mind about wanting food, as there was nothing that appealed to me....
*sigh again* Have been thinking over the last week that maybe I've inadvertently done something to piss him off or something...he rarely replies to my texts anymore... and if he does they're always really vague and dismissive... what have I done to him to deserve this? I don't think I've done/said anything to him... so why the shitty treatment... since Helen's been back, he's been pretty much ignoring me, ... gods I sound so very emo it sucks...
Am not going into detail about anything to do with them, as it'll annoy people and upset me more... sigh... and before anyone says anything about it... I've tried to drop it, I really have... I just can't okay... I cannot help how I feel, and I certainly can't help the fact that my stupid fucking heart is screaming at me to do and say things that I haven't got the fucking confidence to do... and it hurts... so before anyone thinks to tell me to drop it, don't even bother... I'm torturing myself enough with things as it is...

Edit: Hmm... I don't know where that came from... but It was aimed at nobody in particular... well, okay... someone on MSN said something that sparked me off... but nobody you'll know and yeah... nobody take it personally, or I'll cry... meh...

Pointless quizzes, cos I'm bored and have nothing better to do with my life...

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 12:21:34 GMT

1) How old do you wish you were?
Dunno... I like being 18 really...

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
err... I think I was in Bed...

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Curse, mutter, get annoyed, beat them ferociously and then wander off muttering and growling..

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
I'd like to think I am most of the time...

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
I want one on the inside of my left ankle and onejust under the underwear line on my pelvis.

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Russian. Its so pretty, and the cursing is amazing!

7) Do you know your neighbors?
Sort of... Haven't really sopken to them for SOME TIME

8) What do you consider a vacation?
Going somewhere new and pleasant, spending time relaxing and enjoing myself

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
No, not really. I'll read it for a laugh, but I don't think that these commercial geeks actually have any idea what they're talking about!!

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
Most likely. I don't really like it here. But I don't really want to move into a city...

11) Are you touchy feely?
In what sort of situation? If I'm "With" someone, then I like to hug, and cuddle and stuff... maybe get a little closer if the inclination kicks in... but with friends, I like to hug them. I like having that physical reassurance from my friends... most ills are cured by a hug... yeah, I'm a hug whore... I don't care!

12) Do you believe opposites attract?
Sometimes... but I don't think that it always works... then again, you have things to balance it out there!

13) Dream job?
Something to do with stunts and/or Motorbikes that pays really good money

14) Favorite channel?
I don't really watch that much TV nowadays... DVD's are in!! But, I'll watch MTV2 and most of the other music channels, a bit of sky 1 and some FX for the NCIS!!

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
Home to bed!! Or just to hang out with friends...

16) Showers or Baths?
Showers.

17) Do you paint your fingernails?
No. Not really... I don't like it... chippage and then they just look shit...

18) Do you trust people easily?
Not really... I get hurt a lot... and that always puts me off trusting people... but others I just click with and get along with...

19) What are your phobias?
um... I don't really know... I know I have this huge terror of not finding someone to love... who loves me back...

20) Do you want kids?
Someday... but only boys...

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Yes, sometimes...

22) Where would you rather be right now?
With a friend who seems to be ignoring me... for no real reason... I don't know what I've done to him and can see no justification for the way he's treating me...

23) What makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
Being with my friends, and people I know care for me and I care for

24) Heavy or light sleep?
Usually pretty damn light, unless I've had alcohol... then I'm out of it!!

25) Are you paranoid?
I didn't used to be, but in the last few months... I've gotten really paranoid... its terrifying...

26) Are you impatient?
I can be... my drama teacher commented on my seemingly endless patience with other members of the class in our practical examination!!

27) Who can you relate to?
I have no Idea... I can relate to a few songs!!

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
I have no problem whatsoever with them. If they're happy its all that matters!!

29) Have you been burned by love?
*nods* too much...

33) What are you reading?
I've just finished the "Black Magician" Trilogy, again. Amazing!! love it to bits... now waiting for my anatomy for characters book to turn up and then I have drawing to do!!

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine. Well... there was very little sleep due to the damned brain thinking all night...

35) Favorite Color?
Deep midnight Blue

36) Movie you most want to see?
Dunno... the one movie I was really looking forward to has come out and I've seen it. But I have to say, Snakes on a Plane is the next on the list!!

37) Name three things you have on you at all times:
Shirt, Jeans, watch

38.) What color are your bed sheets?
Blue and cream

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
um... *pulls out pockets* oooh!! A 50p!!

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
Thighs and breast (no dirty jokes please!!)

41) What's your favorite town/city?
Truro in Cornwall. Birthplace of ME!!

43) Who got you to join myspace?
Cathy!!

44) What did you have for dinner last night?
I didn't. I got home, sent a text I most likely shouldn't have as I was annoyed... and went to sleep!!

45) How tall are you barefoot?
5"8

51) What time did you wake up today?
Nine, as I'd had three hours sleep, and mother decided I needed to bath the Dog... I got soaked...

52) Current worry:
Too many for words...

53) Current hate:
Consciousness...

54) Favorite place to be:
In bed. <Agrees with Annis

55) Where would you like to travel?
I want to go to Wales!!

56) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
Asleep!! Or in a shit job thinking "What the hell am I doing here?"

57) Last thing you ate?
Um.... a dorito yesterday afternoon... I'm not really hungry at the moment...

58) What songs do you sing in the shower?
Um... I'll sing anything in the shower!! Last thing was you know what they do to guys like us in prison... by MCR... (hangs head in shame)

59) Last thing that made you laugh:
The dog farted then ran... okay, waddled away!!

60) Worst injury you've ever had?
Dunno... I can't remember the broken collar bone, so its a cross between fractured ankles that happened at Karate when I was younger, and these bloody ribs now...

61) Does someone have a crush on you?
If they did I wish they'd tell me.

62) What is your favorite candy?
? I don't eat that much "candy" I do love Doritos now and again though!!

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200: My name is: Sarah

199: I was born on: 12th March 1988

198. I am a: Female!!

197. My eye color is: Blue-Grey

195. My shoe size is: 8

194. My ring size is: err... an R or something I think!

193. What is your Favorite Color: Deep midnight blue

192. My height is: 5'9

191. I'm allergic to: Ants, Pollen... Penicillin..

190. I live in: Granfum, innit

189. The last book I read: The Black Magician

188. My bed time is: Whenever I get around to it.

187. First Screen name?: Wildcat

186. Current Screen name?: Most commonly used one would be Tuval

179. My favorite Holiday is: Christmas

178. The perfect kiss is: Long lingering and full of heartfelt emotion

177. The last three CDs I have listened to are: My depressing compilation... MCR-Three cheers for sweet revenge (Its my sisters okay) and... The Underworld OST

176. Last song that made me cry was: Train- Drops of Jupiter

172. My most treasured possession(s) is: My pink teddy!!

170. What did you do last night: Went to the Dog, got bored and depressed...

167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): Burn.
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143. Santa: Nope

142. Love at First Sight: Um... not really but sometimes!!

141. Luck: Sort of

140. Fate: No

139. God: No

138. Aliens: There certainly will be other intelligent life in the universe yes,

137. Heaven: No

136. Hell: No

135. Ghosts: no

134. Horoscopes: no

133. Soul mates: yes

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129. Hugs or Kisses: I like both, but I'd prefer Kisses!!

128. Drunk or High: Drunk, never have been, never WILL be high.

127. Phone or online: phone

126. Red heads or Brown hair: I like both!!

125. Blondes or Brunettes: Either!

124. Lamb & tuna or peanut butter & jelly: Ewwww... just... ewwwww...

123. pool or darts: Pool!! I can't play darts to save my life!

122: sci-fi or horror: both

121: boys or girls: Both (to hang out with I mean)< Agrees with Joe

120. Night or Day: night, its dark and the plants have gone to sleep!!

119. Oranges or Apples: apples

118. Curly or Straight hair: Either. I'm not exactly fussy, but I like mine straight

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114: Scary: Hospitals

115. Backstabbers: Kill them
116: Parents: Are vexing...

110. School: Was fun, then got depressing

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:::::Last time?::::::::
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103. Missed someone: Earlier today....
102. Hugged someone: Last night

101. Seen someone you haven't seen in a while: um... I don't remember.

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90. Who's the ditziest person you know?: Lauren

89. Who makes you laugh the most: Razz and Duncan usually

87. One thing I'm mad about right now: Mad in a bad way? I'd rather not say, mad in a good way, Doritos!! They're addictive I swear!

83. The last movie I saw in the theater was: X-men 3

82. The thing I don't understand is: Men..

79. The one thing I love about the opposite sex: Eyes...

78. This summer: I'm going on holiday.... to Devon....

77. Next year will be: Boring and Sad, all my friends will have gone away...

76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My friends

75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most is: Dunno really...

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71. Tomorrow: No idea, no plans at all.

72. Today: Went to work, got wages.. come home... got bored...

71. Next Summer: I have no Idea... most likely stalking Adam and Cathy

70. Next month: Going on holiday

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64. The person I have been good friends with the longest: Lauren

62. The person who knows the most about me is: Err... Loz, Kay and Cathy I guess

61. The person that can read me the best is: Cathy... to some degree Adam, Loz and Kay

60. The most difficult thing to do is: Cope with it all

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Nope! *is proud*

58. I have the following siblings: One highly vexing sister

55. Who was your first love: My Adam who went to Australia

56. My zodiac sign is: Pisces, look at me chase myself...

54. Who do you feel most comfortable with: Used to be Adam... and Catherine but now I don't really know... I'm still pretty comfortable around Cathy, but Adam's behaving really... unfairly really....

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: um.... pass....

51. Right now I am talking to: Caffee!

48. I have a job at: The Cinema!! Yes, worship me!! lol!

47. I have a pet(s): 2x Cat, 1x Rat, 1x Dog

46. I hope: Things work out...

45. The worst sound in the world: gods, there are so many of them!

44. The person that made me cry the most is: Currently, the mop.

43. Have You ever done drugs?: Nope.

33. My favorite piece of clothing is: My jeans.

32. My favorite sport is: Motorcycling.

31. Last time I cried: Last night, everything caught up with me.... again...

28. The church I attend: I don't DO church

27. Last person I got mad at: Myself...

26. My worst experience I've ever had was: Dunno really...

22. The all-time best movie is: Sin City is a perfect perfect movie, but so is the Crow... and... Gods I have so many favourite movies!

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Being around someone you love...

20. So, about them Canadians: They're pretty cool! They have guys on horses with funny hats!!

19. The most annoying thing ever is: Chav scum.< agrees again with Joe

18. The most annoying person you know is: Don't make me list...

17. I lose all respect for people who: Think they're superior, and do things that they know will hurt others and expect them to be okay with it..

16. I hate: Chavs

15. I like: My guitar

14. My Favorite Day is: Tuesday

13. My Favorite Month is: March

12. My Favorite band is: I don't have a favourite really.

11. The worst pain I ever felt?: Not going there, I will seem w'emo...

10. My favorite phrase: huh?

9. My room: is really messy atm!

8. My favorite actress/actor is: Its a tie between Ryan Reynolds, Stephen Dorff, Hugh Jackman and Christian Bale!!

7. Your weakness: I'm highly emotional...

6. Do you like someone: Yes.

5. Cats?: Don't seem to like me very much...

4. What turns you on: One of "those" looks usually suffices!

3. Who broke your heart: guess...

2. You filled out all these questions because: I have nothing better to do until mother decides to get her ass home so we can go riding.

1. What do you hate most about yourself: I'm too emotional, I'm in a lot of pain, and i can't sleep. Oh, also my chronic inability to talk to people about things that I really need to tell them.

Sigh...

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 09:50:20 GMT

Well, as far as pub nights go... last night was one of the worst yet for me...
I turned up late, following uber massive row with family about sister being able to steal large quantities of money from me, using it to buy fucking SWEETS and being able to get away scott free with it all... grr...
Download was the main topic of discussion... not going.... meh...
Finally allowed/have funds to get alcohol... so drank Vodka... which in hindsight, was a bad Idea... when Drinking Vodka, I tend to get very emotional, and then go from one end of the emotional scale to the other.... I'm either highly happy, super hyper Sarah, or majorly dejected and depressed Sarah... which seemed to take precidence last night... the Lack of sleep lately, which amusingly is making me look like an anorexic panda, is most likely the main reason for that, but throw in the grr factor of arguing with my mother most of the week, Cathy and Roady vanishing last night without saying bye and this whole three sentences in a 5/6 hour night from Adam... and it doesn't help...
Speaking of which... what the hell have I done to deserve that?
I'm suppposed to be his friend, and yet he can only make the effort to grant me three sentences over a night... has he any idea just how very upsetting that is?
To my knowledge, I've done/said nothing to him lately to deserve it... meh... I shall cease now.. and go bath the dog...
I have nothing better to do with my life until mother comes home, and we go out motorbiking... and since she's proposing a new route... we're inevitably going to end up getting lost...
*sigh*
Have fun those of you going to download... probably see you when you all get back...

Damn fucked up nut-job fucktards....

Wed, 31 May 2006 14:17:36 GMT

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Fucking gay nutcase fucktard of a mother...
Got up today somewhere around 12.30, as I was sleepy last night, and didn't really sleep too well due to freaky and highly unpleasant dreams... and Mother is nowhere to be found, along with fucktard of a sister... who just happens to have fucked off with my bloody leather jacket, complete with MP3 player, Wallet and Inhaler... So I get pissed off about that... get a phone call from Mother when I'm in the middle of a generally okay-ish "Lets be nice for once and do some housework... since I'm bored and the place is a tip.

Phone Call:
Phone: *ring*
Me: Yagen?
Mother: What the hell is that supposed to mean?
Me: Probably nothing, but it pisses the telesales people off...
Mother: Butter 6 slices of bread, get the sauce and vinegar out. *puts phone down*
Me: Bloody charming.... *does the shit she wants and air guitars to something on the radio...

Mother then walks in in a shitty mood, along with slut of a sister. I steal my coat back, look through my wallet and discover my last £1 has gone... (all I have to last until Saturday) I accordingly and well within my rights, flip. I start shouting at bitch sister, who has spent it on bloody sweets... *grr*... then get shouted at by mother for getting angry at the fucker for stealing my money... Then I start shouting back at her about this shit, as if I'd done that to fucktard there, I'd be grounded for Gods know how long, as well as having to pay her back and all sorts of other shit...
Eat cold chippy chips in bread... get pissed pff even more, as I've not long cleaned the kitchen and fucktard goes and spills tea everywhere...
Then mother has the audacity to bitch at me, saying things about me not getting up until 2pm (when she wasn't even here and I was up hours before that... *grr some more*) therefore I must be lazy, I do nothing around the house... (???? Excuse ME, this place was a sty when you left, it now looks presentable, and only because I've been working my ass off here trying to make things a little easier on YOU) and THEN fucking slams the front door on me as I'm trying to explain to her what I've been doing...
To make matters even better, she promised me yesterday that we'd go out on a Motorbike ride today, she'd put £5 worth of petrol in my bike as I have no money or petrol, and then we'd ride to a pub and she'd treat me to a glass of coke somewhere... now she's decided she'd rather plant fucking flowers in the garden with fucktard....

One pissed off Sarah... *growls and shreds things*

Mon, 29 May 2006 23:02:38 GMT

THE ULTIMATE L0VE SURVEY

How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?

Twice. And it hurts way too much....

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

Possibly....

Do you think that you should become friends with someone before dating them?

I do.

Have you ever had your heart broken?

I have... I healed and its broken again.... aren't I w'emo!!

What do you think about long-distance relationships?

It worked for 2 years for me... but then went wrong.... *sigh*

Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?

Currently, older. I'm not dating a 13 year old!!

Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

Indeed.

Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?

Dunno... Depends on the circumstances... I guess once its been done, there's always the temptation afterwards...

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt & you cried?

I do dammit.... again... see w'emo icons...

How many kids do you want to have?

Two boys, when I'm older...

Is there someone who you like at the moment?

Yes there is... and he doesn't seem to notice...

Do you usually fall for a wrong guy/girl or the right guy/girl?

Dunno...

What is your favorite color?

Deep blue

What are your views on gay marriages?

I don't have a problem with it. If someone feels love for someone else, they should cherish it, no matter what sex they are.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?

No. Well, not intentionally if I have.

Have you ever given or been given roses?

Both!! I love getting them, and giving them is also fun!!

Are you the one who makes the move or do you wait for them to make the move?

Depends on what I feel like, but its almost always the other person... I have a huge fear of rejection...

What is your all time favorite romance movie?

Dirty Dancing.

Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you remarry?

No.

Is remarriage betrayal?

I don't think so... it depends on circumstance... If you're twenty something and your other-half has been beating you or something, then you're well within your rights to divorce, get him put away and marry someone who loves you.

At what age did you start noticing the opposite/same sex?

Dunno really... I know my first relationship was when I was 13... only lasted a couple of weeks though!!

What song do you want played as you walk down the aisle?

I have no idea.... but first dance at the reception would have to be something like... um... well, I'll get back to you on that!!

Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?

Most of them are infatuated.... Love is something that can't really be explained... you just know when you're in love...

What's the longest you've ever liked someone?

Liked without acting on it further than its already gone... *counts* Well, about three... maybe four months

Would you give up everything for love?

I would indeed.

Will your life be incomplete without love?

I lived without it for a long while... but to quote Heart... with reference to someone...and apologies again for emo-ness... "Until Now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you"

What do you notice first in a guy/girl?

Eyes and smile.

Like Someone?

I really do...

Do they know?

He most likely has some idea... but he has no clue exactly what he means to me.... as I'm too much of a coward to tell him...

Do you have a gf/bf?

No... I'm lonely... and in love... *cries*

Want to get married?

Only to that one special person who will love me for who I am, and who I will love.

To?

Um... I sorta already said!!

Grr doesn't quite cover how pissed off I am at the moment...
Mr Suri visited today, and was in a bad mood before he even walked through the door... Proceeded to bitch at everyone on tiny matters... Told me I have no idea how to clean, because I was standing at the door with the rubbish bucket taking the rubbish off the customers before they left... he seems to think that as soon as I open the doors to let customers out I should be off and cleaning... WANKER....
Then Ryan decided to get all high and mighty... so I got more pissed off with him talking down to me, thinking he's all superior to me.... not to make too much of the time card, but I've been working there for 2 years and nearly four months. He' been there what? A year or so??
Cathy has been there about a year, and she's great. She works harder than half of the staff AND never talks to anyone else like they're something you'd wipe off the sole of your boot.
Gods... half of the staff at the moment need one hell of a beating... *shreds paper with nails...* not a happy Sarah... grr...
On a better note, I'm getting a new book on drawing Human anatomy, and since I seem to have developed an obsession with X-men again... I was thinking that when I get used to drawing people, I'll do the gang as superheroes... mutants really, so grab your mutation!! Woo!!

Going to bed now... wiiih...

Mon, 29 May 2006 01:08:57 GMT

1)Hello or Bonjour: Hewwo! *pokes a french person*
2)Name: Sarah
3)Nickname(s): Saz, Sazzy, Bucket, specs, Loui.
3)Sex: Girl!!
4)Eye colour: Blue Grey green
5)Hair colour: Browny-ginger-ish!!
7)Height: 5"9
8)Siblings: Eine schwester...
9)Ever been kissed?: Indeed.
10)Ever cheated or been cheated on: Neither
11)Ever missed school because it was raining?: um... the road WAS flooded!!
12)Ever faked sick: Who hasn't!?
13)Kept a secret from anyone: *sarcasm* noooo...
14)Had an imaginary friend: When I was 5!
15)Wanted to hook up with a guy/girl friend?: I have/do
17)Ever had a crush on a "star"?: *rolls eyes* who out there doesn't?
18)Ever thought of animated characters as hot?: Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiih. and only when I was younger! I had a thing for Darianin Sailormoon!! lol!

-----------------FAVOURITES----------------

19)Drink: Coke.
20)Food: MEAT!!
21)Restaurant: Don't really have one!
22)Shampoo: I'm not really fussy about it!
23)Colour: Deep midnight blue
24)Summer/Winter?: Winter. No heat in winter!
25)Favourite show: Scrubs, Futurama, Simpsons...
26)Lace, Silk, Or Satin?: Satin darlings!! Woot for underwear!!
27)Like anyone?: Everyone knows I do!
28)Who have you known the longest out of your friends?: Lauren! She's been there forever!!
29)Who's the shyest friend?: Dunno really! Most of my friends are quite outgoing!!
30)When is your birthday?: 12th March
31)Who do you go to for advice?: Good friends.... sometimes mother.
32)Who do you get along with?: um... my friends! I hope!!

**IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU**

33)Cried: Too much... W'im not woe'kay...
34)Been mean: Probably
35)Listened to your favourite band?: Fcuk yes!
36)Been sarcastic?: noooo...
37)Been yelled at?: Only by mother
38)Talked to someone you have a crush on?: Yep.
39)Kissed someone?: Nope
40)Hugged someone?: Yep! My friends always get hugs!
41)Won an award?: No... I fail at all!!
42)Wished upon a star?: Just about all of them.
43)Laughed until you've cried: No... I've not done that for ages!!
44)Played Truth or Dare: No
45)Watched a sunrise/sunset: Yep. Last night... I was up at four in the morning, so I went outside and watched the sun come up.
46)Went to the beach at night?: I don't live near a beach...
47)Had too much homework: Revising the enitre Human health and disease cirriculum!!
48)Eaten anything out of the ordinary?: nope... unless you count my odd concoctions strange!!
49)Are you lonely?: I am indeed... *sniffle*
50)Are you happy?: Sometimes. When I'm with my friends usually
51)Are you talking to someone online?: No. Messengers are blocked on this computer... *curses*

52)God/Devil: Wiih... depends what mood I'm in!!
53)Love at first sight: You can fancy someone at first sight, but you really have to know someone to love them truly...
54)The Closet Monster: *squeals* where???
56)Heaven/hell: Hmm... is hell exothermic or endothermic?!
57)Superstitions: um... dunno... I like to think I have some lucky necklaces!!
58)Half empty or half full: Whatever
59)Who named you?: Dad
60)Favourite saying?: Wiiiih!!
61)When was the last time you showered?: This afternoon... okay... yesterday since its today already!!
62)What is the last thing you said online?: Good dog
64)What is your computer desk made of?: Wood and metal!!
65)What was the last thing that you did before getting on the computer? I microwaved dinner...and forgot about it!!

68)Where do you want your wedding?: Somewhere scenic
69)How's the weather?: Damp....
70)What did you do last night?: um... geeked on Tekken 4 since Adam wiped the memory card by accident!
71)What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex?: Eyes and smile
73)All time favourite TV shows: I don't watch daytime tv!!
74)Dream vehicle?: Ducati 996 in limited edition black matte finish!! *geeks*
75)How often do you go to movies? I WORK at the movies!!
76)Favourite music?: Well, as I'm, as Adam put it, "an 80's metal head" 80's metal I guess.
77)Favourite band(s): I don't have a favourite... I appreciate a number of them!!
83)If you could change your name what would it be?: I want my e-mail name!! Temshwee!!
84)Favourite hobby: Reading.
85)The stupidest thing you ever done?: Got my tongue stuck to a frozen cheese string!
86)First Son's name:? It will be either Marcus or Jonathan
87)Husband/Wife name? Do I have a ring on the fourth finger on the left hand? I don't see one... shove that question away mate!!
88)First daughter's name: I don't want girls... sounds awful but I don't...
89)Do you collect anything?: I have about 200 LOTR warhammer-esque miniatures!!
90)Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: no. *cries and is lonely*
91)On the phone or in person?: In person. Things on the phone are soooo... impersonal!
92)Lust or Love: Love
93)If you could change something about yourself: Be more confident... and I want wings!!
94)What time was intermission?: eh?
96)Who sent this to you?: I nabbed it from Joe's myspace!!
97)What do you think of this person?: I don't really know him too well, but he's a cool guy!
98)Your favourite song? I have many!!
99)Anything you want to say to everyone?: Wuv oo all!!
100)Do you want your friends to do this survey back to you?: I'm not bothered!!

Thu, 25 May 2006 22:43:09 GMT

Sigh... for some unexplainable reason, I feel so very w'emo its scary.... Mind you... the current musical selection most likely isn't helping... *looks at the playlist on Dad's computer*
hmm...
Seether- Broken
James Blunt- Goodbye my lover (don't shoot me, its getting skipped!!)
Michael Buble- Home
Switchfoot- Twenty Four
The Calling- Stigmatised
hmm... again... EMONESS!!

What have I done with my life today? Hmm, Got up at 12 as I was up until 3 this morning doodling... Changed a few things on Adam's birthday card...
Looked after the rats, ate toast and drank some tea, went to my nanna's house, got bored, Went to one of my mother's friends houses to get her massage bed thing back, went to McDonalds, went to Woolies to Get Adam the new Tool album for his birthday. Texted Adam for a while. Went home... got really bored... watched "The Life of David Gale" on DVD... bored...
May go to bed, as I'm one sleepy Sarah!

Hewwo!!

Wed, 24 May 2006 21:20:12 GMT

Well, I've not updated in a while, so I thought I'd put something random up here!!

Lets see... um... Tuesday night. Wasn't as good as most nights... was okay I guess! There were emo bands playing.. we played pool... Duncan is now called Bill!! I'm now Eric (some emo band wanted people for their mailing list!! hehehehe!!
We skipped going to the Oak cos' it sucks cock on Tuesdays... we went to Asda, where Carrie and I looked at clothes, and Carrie expressed her desire for a nice pair of dungarees!!
We then trundled off to the Park for about half an hour! Then the lovely Neil gave Carrie and Duncan a lift to Carries, then dropped me off at home!! Yay! Was home shockingly early, 12 midnight... mother was quite shocked!!
Toby is still somehow alive.... sigh... poor rat... he's wrapped up and asleep again.
For some reason feeling rather emo today.... oh well. I'm officially free of school forever!! Okay, except for exams, but that doesn't really count!!
Must remember to pull all my shit off of the school system before the account gets wiped... grr...
Going shopping for Adam's birthday present tomorrow... I have absolutely NO IDEA what to get him... I've already drawn up his birthday card, and I have to say I'm very proud of it!! lol!
Wiiih... I have a headache... and I'm hungry... I shall now leave!!
*hugs for all*

Quizzage!! lol!!

Fri, 19 May 2006 12:39:49 GMT

50 questions

Truth-

1. Do you like anyone?
Yup

2. Do they know it?
I think he gets it...

3. Simple or complicated?
I'd say more complicated.

In the Last Month-

4. Had sex? Nope

5. Bought something? Yes

6. Gotten sick? Indeed...

8. Felt dumb? Yeah...

9. Talked to an ex? Nope

10. Missed someone? Yep...

11. Failed a test? Nope.

12. Ate cereal? Nope...

13. Danced crazy? ?????

14. Got your hair cut? No, but it needs it...

Unique-

16. Nervous habits? Stuttering, playing with watch or necklace... being generally jumpy...

18. Can you roll your tongue? Hehe!! Yep!

19. Can you raise one eyebrow? *raises eyebrow* What's it to you?! lol!

20. Can you cross your eyes?: Yep!!

21. Do you make your bed daily: Hell yes!

22. Do you think you are unique: I Like to hope so!!

Have you Ever-

23. Given money to a homeless person? Yes

24. Said "I Love you"? Yes

26. Waited all night for a phone call? Yeah, but I fell asleep!

27. And never got it? I was asleep...I didn't wake up, so I guess not.

28. Sat and looked at the stars? Tuesday night.

Manners-

29. Do you swear? Not a lot. Freaked Adam out last night as I was cursing quite fluently!!

30. Do you ever "talk back" to people? When I feel like it.. or I'm pissed off with them

31. You cook your own food? Oh yes! Then I know what goes into it!!

32. You do your own chores? Occasionally

33. You like beef jerky? I've not tried it.... I'd like to... Tried Game jerky... that was yucky...

34. You like pepsi or coke? Coke!

35. You're happy with your hair? Only after I've attacked it with straighteners... I'm a fluff monster otherwise!

38. Do you like to swim? Love it

39. When you get bored do you call a friend? Not often, I don't like to intrude...

40. Are you patient? I think so... unless I'm in a really bad mood.

Do you Prefer-

41. Flowers or candy? Flowers!! Pretty, but make me sneeze!!Lol!!

42. Gray or black? Black

43. Color or black and white photos? Colour

44. Red or black? Black

45. Lust or Love? Love hands down... lust gets you hurt...

46. Winter or Summer? Winter

47. Tea or coffee? Tea.

48. Ice cream or Cake? Cake

49. Christmas or Thanksgiving? Christmas, because were not yanks.I don't DO thanksgiving!!

50. Day or night? Night, its dark and pretty!!

Fri, 19 May 2006 12:22:25 GMT

Well... last night didn't go half as badly as I thought it would... Got to Adams... his mother invited me out to ask... I went, but only had a glass of coke as I felt really weird.... and I'd been forced to eat by mother before I left!!
Took me more than five hours to get the courage to start talking to him about things... once we got started, it was really easy to sort things along... He still doesn't know EVERYTHING, but at least he sort of knows how I feel about him, and just how much it hurt before... and stuff... and I feel slightly better for it... I just hope I've not made him feel too bad... bleh...
Its the closest I've been to him when he hasn't been drunk... he was all huggy and being really nice... wiiiih...
Sigh.... am off school today... stupid chest infection... grr... coughing... headachy and my ribs are killing me again... grr...
Oh well... I'm off to play with my new rat now!! I'll put up a picture later!! He's called Midget!! And he's CRAZY!!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxx

Thu, 18 May 2006 11:17:59 GMT

Take a look at your LJ friends list, then list up to ten things you want to say to ten different LJ friends...DO NOT state who these people are. DO NOT confirm nor deny any "comment speculation".

1. I don't really know you that well, but you've given me some sound and great advice, and for that I'm ever greatful.
2. You're one of the greatest people I know. I just hope you know just how much you mean to me.
3. You're unique!! There's no other way of putting it!!
4. Gods. We're so emo sometimes its scary, but at least we're geeky enough to use movies to pull through it all!!
5. I've known you for about a month or so now, and I have to say, you're an amazing friend, with amazing TV tastes!! lol!!
6. You're such a friendly person, you make every night at the dog an experience!!
7. *huggles and runs away*
8. You're a daft gett sometimes, but there is a head full of good advice on your shoulders!!
9. Gods I'm going to miss you. Look after yourself. I'm here if you ever need me.
10. I hardly ever speak to you, but from your posts, I feel for you.

Wiiiiih!!
One nervous... no, terrified Sarah... Adam asked me over on monday...
"Sarah sweetie, I think we need to have a chat, but not in a scary way though!! lol!!"
Wiiiih... was terrified... never vibrated so much in my life... aaaaand it was pretty pointless... he said that he had some idea what was wrong with me... then failed to elaborate... then started pushing at me to tell him... which got my back up... and made me even more terrified... so I couldn't tell him... then I felt really bad... went home... was up until gods know what ridiculous time trying to write out what needs to be said without it coming out as innane ranting, or a flood of w'emo text... but failed... so ended up writing a letter apologising for my not being able to tell him what the problem is... and attempting to explain it all... in a very inneffective way, and promising that I'll tell him before he leaves for Uni... then I got pissed off... because of my innefficient self... and ended up texting him yesterday and saying that I'll talk to him tonight... and now I'm terrified again... but I will say what I need to... with the help of a little alcohol...
Wiiiiiiih...
*cries in terror*

A quiz stolen from Neil's Myspace!! Cos I'm bored!!

Sat, 13 May 2006 14:47:14 GMT

Longest Survey Ever -- this is the longest survey you'll ever fill out! Do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends.... Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. (really isn't that long)

Time started: 15:21
First Name: Sarah
Single or Taken: Regrettably Single
Gender: Female
Birthday: 12th March
Siblings: Eine Kleine Schwestern
Eye color: Blue/gray/green all mixed up!!
Shoe size: 8
height: 5'8 and a bit!!
What are you wearing right now: Maiden shirt, Jeans....
righty or lefty: I be mainly a rightie... but I can use both to some degree!!
Can you make a dollar in change right now?: nope. I'm poor... :(

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Relationships
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Who are your three closest friends?: I really can'tchoose between my friends, they're all so great!!
Do you have a BF or GF?: As said above... unfortunately, no.
Best place to go for a date: Dunno... depends entirely upon the mood and shit!!
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Favorite place to shop: Um.... I have no idea... I don't go shopping very often!!
Color: Anything Dark!!
Animal: Wolves
Drink: Most likely Vodka and Coke!!
Sport(s): um.... I love javelin... but really if I can call it a sport, playing with my swords!!
Fast-Food Place: KFC or McDonalds!!
Month: March!! My Birthday!!
Movie: Dunno... I love king arthur... anything with bladed weaponry appeals to me!!
Juice: Blackcurrant!!
Favorite cartoon character(s): The Futurama gang!!!
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Have you ever
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Made yourself throw-up: nope... I swear I've answered this in another quiz!!
eaten a hot dog: HELL YES
Put your tongue on a frozen pole? No, but I got stuck to a frozen cheese string at work!!
Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes... it still does dammit....
Broken a bone: Many!!
Been in a police car: Nope
Been on a plane: Yep!! I've flown a privately owned thing!!
Been in a sauna: nope... just wait till I get back from Devon though!! Sauna in the Cabin!!
Been in a hot tub: Yep... mmmm... hot tub!!
Swam in the ocean: Yeah... bloody fish!!
Fallen asleep in school: Frequently!!
Broken someone's heart?: I really do hope I haven't...
Fallen off your chair? Worryingly often!!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?: I fell asleep... does that still count?
Saved e-mails: A few
Fallen for one of your best friends?: Yep
Used someone: No. Thats just mean.
Been cheated on: No.
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What is...
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Your good luck charm?: It used to be my Ankh... but lately when I've worn it, bad things have happened...
Best song you ever heard: I really can't say.... I've heard so much good stuff lately!!
Last thing you said: Thats not mine...
Last thing you ate? A sandwich made up of Cheese and Onion crisps, Pepper and Tomato sauce!! Mmm tasty!!
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Um.... its green!! Thats all I know!!
Best thing that has happened to you this year: I've met so many new and wonderful friends.
Worst thing that has happened to you this year?: You really need to ask? If you know me, then you KNOW!!
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Have you had..
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Chicken pox: Yes
Sore Throat: Yes
Stitches: Yep
Staples: no
Broken Nose: no
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Do You
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Like picnics: yes... except the ants!!
Like school: In moderation!! I'm fed up with it at the moment!!
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Would you/what is
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Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000?: Um... no.
Who was the last person that called you: Lauren
What makes you laugh the most?: Lots of things, mostly the inane things that go through my head!!
What makes you smile?: Being around my friends when there are no complications and we're having a good time... not happened for a while...
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Who is the last person:
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You yelled at: My mother.... we're not getting along at the moment
Who told you they loved you: In the context of true love.... I can't remember...
Who is your loudest friend?: Gods... there are so many!!
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Do you/Are You:
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Do you like filling these out: I'm doing it aren't I!?
Do you wear glasses or contacts: Glasses
Do you like yourself: Most of the time... other times I just annoy myself...
Do you get along with your family: Most of the time!
Obsessive?: Meh!!
Compulsive: see above
Love Life: um.... don't go there...
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Do you have a crush?: Again, do you really need to ask that...
If so, do they know?: I'm pretty damn sure he knows... grr...
What is so great about them?: To little room to start... yeah, I got it bad I know...

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This or That?
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Skiing or Boarding: Boarding
Autumn or winter: Autumn
Silver or Gold: Gold... sort of allergic to silver...
Diamond or pearls: diamonds
Sunset or Sunrise?: Sunset
Sprite or 7up?: sprite
Orange juice or Apple Juice? Apple
Cats or dogs: Dogs
Coffee or tea: either
Indoor or outdoor: Outdoor.... unless its raining. Then I'll not willingly leave the house!

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Final questions
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What are you listening to right now? Rainbow-Lost in Hollywood

What did you do yesterday?: Didn't go to school... got bored out of my skull... got really worried and Paranoid as Adam isn't replying to my texts... gods I suck...

Where do you want to get married? Preferrably somewhere scenic... I'd love scotland!!

If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?: Give me more confidence... and the guts to do what I need to do...

Are you a good driver?: I'm an okay Rider...

Are you a good singer?: People say so... I'm usually quite shy about it though...

What did you dream about?: I don't usually remember... but my dreams are quite disturbing...

End Time: 15.43

Wiiih... not having too good a day... *sigh*
Can't go out tonight for Cammy's birthday as I've been offered to babysit for someone I despise... and I'm not even getting paid for it... grr.... at least 6 hours of having to put up wuth a 5yr old, a 3yr old and a 2yr old... Lucifer give me patience... Its a full moon tonight, and I'd much rather be out getting drunk with all my friends and howling at the moon with Neil!! lol!!
Very bored atm... nobody appears to be online... and am worried as I texted Adam yesterday at 12 noon... and again at 6-ish... and I've still heard nothing back from him... wiih... oh well... hope its just me being paranoid... sigh... so bored... there is NOTHING to do here...
May go polish the swords... again...
*huggage*

Wiiih!!

Wed, 10 May 2006 20:31:23 GMT

1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
I really have no idea... its confusing...

2. What made you smile today?
A text from Fluffy!!

3. What were you doing this morning at 8a.m.?
I was asleep!! Lol!!

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Trying to coax the dog outside!!

5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
I'm 18, do the math!! 2006-18= 1988!!

7. Last thing you said aloud?
OMFG Yes!!

8. Last thing someone else said aloud?
I suppose so (dad saying that I could use the computer!!)

9. Worst thing currently on television
I really can't choose, there's so much crap around nowadays!!

10. What was in the mail today?
I had, no post....

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
Its drunk, and Tea, Cola, Water, Fizzy Lime...

12. What is your favorite part of the day?
I don't do daytime... I'm a night child!!

13. Your current To-do list?
Actually find my bloody OCG Script...

14. Where is your best friend right now?
I don't have ONE best friend! I'm guessing most of them are at home...others... I think I know where Adam is... *sniffle* and Fluffy is out dancing!!

15. What color is your toothbrush?
Purple and White

16. What is out your back door?
100 ft of garden

17. Any plans for Friday night?
I have no idea... most likely not... sigh...

18. Least favorite place to shop?
DIY stores when Dad has no Idea what he's looking for...

19. Last thing you bought?
Doritos!

20. Last gift you received?
A new shirt from mother, that I love, it makes me look gooooood!! lol!!

21. Funniest thing you heard all day?
Something Fluffy said in a text!!

22. Favorite mug?
My dog mug!!

23. Colour of front door?
White

24. Beautiful is:
A feeling that you get when you see something that appeals to you.

25. Describe your keychain:
House Key, Shed Key, Locker Key, Cat keyring, Seahorse Keyring, my name on a keyring.

26. Where do you keep your change?
Depends... usually in my wallet, but If I don't have it with me, then in my pockets!!

27. Say something to the number 1 person in your Top 8:
Get yer rat out!!

28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
My Terminator Heavy Leather Jacket

29. What was the weather like on your graduation day?
I've not graduated yet!!

30, last flavoured icecream you ate?
Vanilla... mmmmmm....

31. Last rainbow you saw?
In London on way to kings cross with Bob and Caffee

32. Something you are excited about?
um.... dunno... there is very little fun in my life at the moment... wiiih

Strangest Dream EVER!!!

Wed, 10 May 2006 13:48:04 GMT

An odd thing to put here I know, but I really can't help it... this dream was the strangest montage of things ever... and pretty much everyone I know was in it... *squeaks in terror of the dream* And the really worrying thing is that I spent most of the dream crying... strange!! I don't remember the exact start... but I know there was a bit with Helen in it where she was telling me off for chasing a duck around the Black Dog, and Bob was DJ-ing and playing the birdie song... strange... then everyone decided to go outside and we all sat on the benches... and there were wooden swords everywhere, and I ended up having a sword fight with Martin, and the swords broke... and then somehow I'm in hospital... and Carrie and Duncan, Adam, Cathy, Fluffy and my cat (the black one) are there and someone says, you're having a baby. Then I start to cry. And then there's a doctor that comes over with a HUGE needle and stabs my neck... then I fall asleep, and I wake up and I'm crying again, and Fluffy is putting the letters on the board that we use at work, and we're all at work, and Fluffy puts the board up on the wall and it says

Duncan and Carrie-STwins- Jamie Brian, Andrew Martin
Sarah-Girl-Jenny Carrie

Then I start crying again, as I don't want a girl, I only want boy kids. And then I'm in a car suddenly, talking to my little friend Emma, and asking her if she'd hate me if I put the kid up for adoption... and she said no and drove (?) to an orphanage, but I remember that the Kid is in the popcorn machine at work... so we drive back to where I was assuming to be work.. then I'm suddenly at Adam's, on the stairs all curled up into a ball, the way I get wehn I'm really upset.... and I can hear Helen shouting as I've not apologised for something... and then Adam comes along and hugs me and says something that I can't remember... and then I wake up.... Strange is an understatement I think... One worried and terrified Sarah.... Wiiiiiih....

Curse you lack of memory....

Mon, 08 May 2006 12:28:07 GMT

Urf.... one really hungover Sarah.... which doesn't make sense... as I don't think I drank that much... only a few double vodka and cokes... I think....
Quite worried as most of last night is pulling one really hazy blank.... meep.... I remember Pool... and loosing.... and singing.... and Bob talking a lot... chasing ducks???? And..... just about remember a taxi ride home...
Gods I feel like shit...
Worried that I may have done or said things I shouldn't have... I hate it when I can't remember.... sigh.... hey, I still have money!! Woooo!!
Skipped school today... its only Drama... and I've got an entire workshop on it tomorrow... so bleh... I'll be all dramatic and make up some elaborate excuse... I've got him wrapped around my little finger!! Lol!
Meeeeh.... Headache....
Am NOT going to go back to bed for a few hours... shit... I'm at work later too... damnation... wiiiih